My heart’s obsession, my mind’s oppression, my body’s infection, my soul’s depression.
"I remember writing about hands once,
but I don’t think I speak that language anymore.
I woke up one day,
and the poems on the wall didn’t make sense
and I couldn’t remember if I was angry or
in love or falling apart or if I was supposed to
feel right in this skin or not.
Every week starts off with the same dream of mirrors,
and they are always all empty.
No one talks about the body in the middle
of the room,
because they don’t see it anymore.
I think I miss you,
but I’m not supposed to bring it up.
My mother calls,
and I only know how to say things like
‘wish you were here,’
and ‘this city’s so dull without you tonight.’
She tells me it isn’t healthy collecting
ghosts like post cards,
and she wishes her knees were still good
so she could pray for me properly.
It turns out a lot of people talk to themselves
just to make sure their voice isn’t gone,
and it isn’t just me.
I am trying to wipe the loneliness from
the walls in this white tiled bathroom,
but it sticks to every surface like a dirty confession.
One of these days I am going to wake up
in my body again.
I wonder if I’ll finally know how to use it
after spending so much time apart."
- Y.Z, Gone fishing (via rustyvoices)
If you ask me why I believe in God, I will tell you, “because I need to.” I need Him and I need the concept of grace and unconditional love and I need this friend that I have found that loves me even if I looked Him in the face and said I wanted Him dead, even if I never spoke to Him again; I need that. I need Someone that looks for me in my broken pieces. I can’t do this life without God. And that is the truest thing I have ever believed.
"The function of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prays."
- ~ Søren Kierkegaard (via:anchoredinChrist4ever)
(Source: anchoredinchrist4ever, via thesparrowsong)
"Things usually make sense in time, and even bad decisions have their own kind of correctness."
- Miranda July (via emotional-algebra)
"Attract them by the way you live."
- Saint Augustine (via kvtes)
(Source: psych-quotes, via pursuitofmore)